It was not easy...

hmm...i'm counting my days... i don't know what happen? it just happen all of sudden... i had tried to protect it for quite a long time.. why? i just can't believe this.. seriously..i know...whatever i did...it was my fault..but..can't you forgive me...i'm really suffered for that.. please...listen to me... i need to explain this to you... i never ever again want to hurt you..i'm sorry...i'm really sorry...i know...if you read this..please noted that i don't have anybody except you..please...i can't survive this..i need you.. it just a matter of time before we will be together forever... please..ayang, i miss you so much..there no one as perfect as you for me..please...

Will you be the one?

Hmmm..
This is for you my dear.. If you were reading this.. i just want to tell you that I miss you so much my dear..
Are you the one? the one who will always be with me.. by my side. Hehehe.. your smile.. I miss it.. Your voice..I long for it. Yourself, I'm looking forward for it. You are really beautiful dear. You make me really happy. As you accept me into your life, you changed my world. I want to give everything to you. Always be with you. I hope you are the one. The one who will spend the rest of my life with me. I love you. I'll tell the whole world that I love you. How much that I love you? Don't ask. You will see.. You are always in my heart. Always with me. I love you.. Siti Nor Shahera binti Abdullah.. 

Expecting somethings beyond the expectations..

Nowadays, I realize something that really open my eyes. Honestly, at first I really have no ideas about this theater things. huh..I'm totally worry about how to make this things happen? How to act? What to do? Where to begin? Seriously, I do not know anything about the theater things. Never watch it before. I have been thinking about the theater since my semester holidays starts until now. Huh.. what a nightmare for me..I don't have any experience or anythings that could help me with these kinds of  things. Then I start try to look something about it on internet. However, I find some interest in theater when I look about it on the internet. It looks and sounds fun. i wonder whether I can do this and survives. Huhuhuhu...nice huh?? I'm gonna cry..Nevertheless, I really hope that I will enjoy this theater and end up alive and safely. Well..I better start to study this things and get it done. I really hope this things will be useful for me someday and help me in my profession. Huhuhuhu..I'm actually worry if I ended up as an artist or actor...WOW!! Who would thought of that?? HAHAHAHA...Alright..all the best..

I am learning...

What a day? I'm actually trying to do something different today. Creating a blog! What a pain in the head? Huh..Well I have to admit that it was true that blogging is not something easy to do.Even I have major difficulties due to this blogging things. Ah...I'm really lost on this. Where to start? What to write? I'm really out of ideas. Maybe I'm not thinking straight right here. Should be more creative and innovative. So I start to look at others blog and I have seen many style of writing. The contents maybe looks simple but believe me it was really hard to write even for me..hahaha.. I just sounds like somebody who has the credibility in writings. Ooopsss...sorry..not praising myself but I'm just trying to make myself comfortable and calm down. I'm learning how to write a blog....huhuhuhuhu..a beginner. How pathetic I am now. Crawling and begging to learn this..somebody help me with this..I need some space. Some fresh air..so i'm out..bye..